We Have The Same Vision, Just Different In Detail
Thursday, August 16, 2018
We Have The Same Vision, Just Different In Detail


How do you picture our lives would be like? You ask me this last night and after telling you mine and you sharing yours I realise we both have the same vision just different in detail. I was always fixated with something permanent and secure where we can build our foundation as we go, but it doesn't have to be that way. You wanted our lives to be filled with adventure and I wanted the same. Just that I'm afraid of what the consequences are if we're too adventurous as we're older. Then again we have each other don't we? I can choose to live a life with my version of security but without you in it, won't it feel empty?

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6 Month Vegan Update
Thursday, August 09, 2018
6 Month Vegan Update



It's been exactly 6 months since I became vegan (wow 6 months!) and honestly, it wasn't easy. I went through a period of change and face challenges I never thought I would encounter. The problem is not only did I went vegan but my body is not receptive of gluten either so I really had a hard time. Let me give you a run down of what I've experience so far.

1) The first few months I was still eating eggs and dairy but just drank medicine to combat the stomach pain. Because eggs and dairy is IN EVERYTHING! I mean I don't drink cows milk but damn these 2 are just in every food we eat. From fried rice to mix veggies to snacks, it baffles me how these sneaks into everything.

2) Traveling was more challenging for sure. We have to look at places that have vegan options or if they don't, I'll just ask the staff to remove the egg and dairy.

3) I have to be prepared, either I pack my own food if I know the place we're going to go doesn't have vegan option (like the time our team went to universal studio for team bonding) or I have to look at the menu online the night before and see how I can make it vegan (like the time we had a farewell dinner for my boss)

4) Reading food labels is tricky. I'm not familiar with these till today but I know a few. For example did you know that feathers are in breads or bugs are use as food colouring? These are labeled in E (with a series of number).

5) At first I can't get my head around eggs and dairy like I knew they are bad but during those few months I would close one eye and still eat it occasionally. I felt like a hypocrite calling myself vegan but the truth is, it's not going to be perfect and changing how I was eating for 29 years overnight isn't going to happen either. Gradually I have to accept that yes cakes have dairy and I can't eat it and my body doesn't want dairy anyway so why force it. I knew I wanted to go full vegan this year and so recently I watch more documentaries and listen to other vegans opinion on how they manage to gradually wind off those food and it changes my view completely. One of the vegans I follow mention that whenever you think that you can eat that cake with dairy on it, remind yourself that an animal has suffered for it. That was spot on.

6) I tried going high carb vegan where I ate a lot of rice and pasta and it's a no no for me. I ended up gaining more weight than I anticipated.

7) I tried a lot of new vegan recipes but the truth is I can't be bothered to cook unless the food takes me 10 - 15 min to make.

Now I understand how vegan feels after making the change. It's so difficult to navigate a world that is not vegan friendly and that's just the reality of it. I just have to accept that and work my way around it. After a year of attempting to become a vegan, I'm so proud that I have gone this far.

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Happy 30th Birthday To Me
Wednesday, August 08, 2018
Happy 30th Birthday To Me



Dear Sweetheart,

Happy 30th and welcome to a new decade of your life! Wow didn't we went through hell and back in your 20's. I'm proud of you for pulling it through. You were brave and had such a strong faith and you need to carry that with you in your 30's. Trust me it's going to be amazing, you just have to be more adult now. Not forgetting you already found the love of your life which means you're no longer responsible for yourself but for him too and this is just the beginning. 

You need to step up, take charge and do things. As much as you don't want to deal with any of it, you have to if you want your relationship to last. This is the decade where your life will take a turn so be prepared. Don't be scared darling. Be yourself and embrace this wonderful journey as it starts right here, right now. I can't wait to see how this decade will unfold for you.




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Embracing Adulthood
Monday, July 30, 2018
Embracing Adulthood


Adulthood in your 20s is far different from being in your 30s. As much as I would like to think that I should have embrace this earlier, I haven't gotten around to it. I realise there's more expectations from you once you hit your 30s; having a better paying job, saving enough money to pay for the house, kids, cars etc. and none of those comes easy. It takes a lot of hard work and hard work is not something I'm very a keen to.

But I realise in order for my relationship to work I have to put in the effort. Not just on that but on myself too. I'm lucky to have someone who dreams big in life, works hard and doesn't stop reminding me of what I needed to work on. Thinking about all these makes me want to curl up in bed and sleep but this girl needs to wake up, get up and do something. Work, save money, do better and be better.

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Half Way Through To 2018
Monday, July 30, 2018
Half Way Through To 2018



I should have written this a month ago but here I am nonetheless. In a couple of days I'm turning 30 and I'll be in Russia celebrating my hearts out. In the mean time this post is about my reflection on what I have set myself up this this past months, what needs to be improved and what I want to achieve before we cap off 2018.

1. Put more effort into the relationship
2. Stop eating eggs, dairy and bread
3. Have an athletic body
4. Save more

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